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The Pleasures of Being

Published on October 19, 2011


I am a very private person and enjoy the deepest intimacies of being. I am also a very public one and have exposed myself in every possible way. I have tested my vulnerabilities time and time again and am not afraid to share, though I am constrained at times in needing to protect the vulnerabilities of the people around me.

Most people probably don’t quite understand what I am talking about when I talk about vulnerability and that is why I wrote my HeartHealth book. There I define the heart as the vulnerability of being and say that the strongest person is actually the most vulnerable one for they are not afraid of the pain of being hurt.

So they take all kinds of risks, the risks of the heart, and that is certainly what I have done a lot of. And yes that makes us a bit crazy for of course the pain and suffering does come. But so do the strong pleasures and ecstasies of being.

The heart is the vulnerability of being, and though I do not write much about it these years, my heart has remained in its vulnerable state. It was not always so and it took me two or three decades to throw down my complicated conceptual mind so my heart could rise over the horizon inside my consciousness.

Maybe I should just confess and say it out loud. I am addicted to love, not the romantic superficial and just fun type but to the deep love one has for one’s wife and children and sometimes for some others that dare to get close enough. Sometimes that love of love drives me toward the heavens and then even there I have someone to love and be devoted to.

As a parent of six children, my unspeakable vulnerability has to do with their lives, their health and happiness and most of all their very existence on this planet. Any parent’s heart goes supernova with just the thought of anything bad happening to one of their children and that’s why I have such strong feelings about vaccines and pediatric as well as obstetric medicine.

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On a day-by-day, month-by-month and year-by-year basis, my real vulnerability is experienced by me in my relationship with my wife Luciana. I have written about her before and because her love and vulnerability matches mine we are good soul mates—though if you read my book The Marriage of Souls you will find out that I believe we have many soul mates. I am certainly married to all my children’s souls.

I have a lot of reasons to be in bliss but nothing sends me up into the clouds as when Lu pours her love out to me. Even when she is not totally open to me she is a loving majestic person to almost everyone else.

Through the years we have had plenty of fuel for conflict resolution with me driving the side always pushing for more love, openness and the deepest intimacies of being. I cannot get away from the dreams of the Garden of Pure Love and the oneness of being that exists there, and she has mostly dreamed of independence and more of an individual approach with a love and passion for her own life.

For the second time in our 15 years together I have taken her out of her own life so it has not been easy (to say the least) for her to be at Sanctuary and she has even thought of leaving me here in the clouds and in paradise alone. When great lovers have differences, it challenges our souls down to their roots and you can imagine how deeply we can feel when we are hurting even at the hint of any separation.

Love can be a great pleasure especially when it has been paid for with trials and tribulations that test the fiber of the love. One can get intoxicated on love and passion and sometimes it’s impossible to stop smiling in the heart.

Being a love junky I am attached to the permanent type of love that comes in like a tide and never goes back out, but even the best and sweetest love ebbs in and out so now you know of my suffering. I think I need to spend more time identifying with the ocean of love that is there no matter what the tide but that is not always easy when we are hurting.

Sometimes we have to drive hard for what we want and what will satisfy our beings. It’s in the wanting, imagining and conceiving that certain things arise and are given birth but then there is the prayer, The Lord is my Sheppard I Shall Not Want, telling us to neutralize our desires and come to the complete resting point of stillness and peace.

My readers of some duration know many sides of me and these past 12 months I have been sounding warnings. Nothing has changed there but I am now feeling more like sounding the song of love these days instead of drums of doom.

Actually things have changed as both financial and natural disasters lap even more strongly on our shores. I am hoping that Bangkok did not have it too bad this weekend though we should all be saying a prayer for the people of Thailand, which is mostly underwater.

I am not sure yet but perhaps after finishing the book on cannabinoid medicine I will go back and edit The Marriage of Souls. Its subtitle is “The Second Coming of Pure Love.” For sure the world and everyone in it would do well with more love.

Writing and publishing materials about love is dangerous in an unloving world where there are actually people who hate love and do as much to hurt love as they can. Writing about beauty is dangerous also for there are the envious.

Ulysses was chained to the mast as our attachment to beauty can break the noblest soul. Living with beauty is dangerous if that beauty is just physical since all physical beauty is temporal. Living with beauty can be difficult also because no human with an ego can be that beautiful all the time.

Nature has a lot to teach us about beauty because she is both beautiful and terrible. I watch the sun come up each day now and stare directly into her. It is centering to solar gaze and awake at the crack of dawn. I was never so aware of how much Nature can help us in terms of our spirituality, meditation and prayer. Maybe there is some hope for me after all.

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Doctor of Oriental and Pastoral Medicine

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  • Tim

    Really, what we all need more than anything is a connection to God Himself. As Mark implies, there has to be a communion which is not undermined by the inconstancies of this world.
    We all know that things are coming to a head.
    I would prayerfully and humbly suggest that everyone watches”The Daniel Timeline” which is available on YouTube and elsewhere.
    Time is short. Things are going to change very soon, and from 21.3.2013 the process begins.
    On 3.10.2016 the Son of God returns.
    “For the Son of Man shall come in the glory of His Father with His angels”.
    and “Every man shall give account of himself to God”.

  • Elaine

    How beautiful! Only a beautiful soul could write such beautiful words. You absolutely have a gift of stringing words together to make poetry and love come alive in the mind of the reader! There is no question it comes from your heart.
    And yes, you ARE brave.
    Please stay ‘vulnerable’.
    Each time you speak of Sanctuary, I see it more clearly in my mind’s eye. It truly does sound like Paradise… does your description of love!

    Thankyou always, for sharing your personal thoughts and feelings, as well as your real life love for your wife and your children. It’s so good to know that this world still has such precious tenderness held in the heart of a man who roars like a lion with protective love for all the children and people of this worlld.
    You truly DO fill the title of “Doctor” better than anyone else I have ever known.

    Thankyou Dr. Mark.

  • grumpy

    May I recommend a book or two written by Jack Kornfield: “After the ecstacy,the laundry” which discusses post enlightenment,’the laundry’ or how we handle our daily imperfect lives after ecstacy & balancing the two. The other is “A Path with Heart” which speaks to sticking to a path no matter what disturbances surround us as distractions to our heart path.
    Jack Kornfield is a very compassionate,loving,truthfilled person which can be heard directly in his voice.He is a married buddhist monk with PhD in psychology & wrote the “Ecstacy’ book soon after dealing with diapers. You can hear him on You Tube I’m sure. A real nice common sense,humorous guy.

  • Katrinika Arnold

    Have just read, in “The Instinct To Heal”, by Servan-Schreiber, his chapter on heart rate coherence vis-a-vis physiological health (The Heart Of Emotions) — and terribly curious about “cardiac coherence training”. Looking forward to the view you express in “HeartHealth”! Do so wish I could be in the wilds of Brazil, as you are. But, as I’ve read elsewhere, “I am right where I am supposed to be.”